Curious yet Cautious

Chilly chills

I'm feeling the chills all because there is a sick person at home, spent 5hrs in cold air-con rooms and it has been raining heavily with strong chilly winds.....things are not helping me eh....hope that it's just the chills and not anything like fever....

Another one...

stranded on a crag, when nothing can be done
although there are times when it seems like you'll give up
I want you to focus on your idea of success
without forgetting to have fun
(even if it's this much more than usual)
(go on together)
find the goal following the starting line

that's right, it can still work out
everybody forward, come on everybody
there's nothing but to move forward, oh oh oh
everybody's engine is working inside their heart
even when you're dreaming
it's throbbingly working

Extracted from Arashi's Everybody Zenshin,
Credit to nyanchan for translation

This just hits me...

In short, just leave it to your imagination
incessantly, heartily, consciously, vividly, if you do that it'll be as always
I'm a wanderer
sometimes I'm close to a detour

yo ho! onwards and upwards
in the direction of the summit, with me

Extracted from Arashi's Taiyou no Sekai
Credit to nyanchan for tranlations

Fandom can be a Bitch!

I have been reading about how people i.e other fans of other groups commenting and comparing their favourite groups and other groups. Now, I'm not saying that you shouldn't do that because I am one of those guilty parties who have done so. But please please please, refrain from making negative comments about other groups. Yes, you can say that your favourite group is better than that other one. But please, don't say that you HATE the other group because they look different or gay-ish or whatever. I mean, how mean can that sound! I know I've been guilty of saying how I don't like that artiste because she/he seem to use sex appeal and have no talent. But that was once or twice, something that's enough to make me feel guilty and so much so that I do not do that kind of thing anymore.

Fandom really makes you emotional.....you can range from the very protective fan who defend your idol like your life depend on it or you can be the mean fan who brings down other groups just because you feel that your idol is the best and nobody else should share the pedestal with your idol. I'm really not fond of the latter because they think nothing about how their words can hurt you. And reading on other people's blogs about how they have been hurt by other fans who drop into their blogs and put down all the negative comments. Like how mean is that, especially when these people become like stalkers dropping negative comments every day just because they feel like so.

Seriously some people need to lighten up!

I'm supposed to be packing...

I'm supposed to be packing up my stuff since I'm planning to move in on Tuesday or Wednesday. But I'm feeling lazy and just want to surf around aimlessly. I realise the one thing I miss about being a student is that feeling of being less serious and less responsible. I mean, you may be busy and all but at the end of the day, there's always someone to back you up, pick up the slack after you. Looking at the week that have just passed and the timetable that I have, there seem to be no break at all for me. It's just go-go-go. It's not that I'm complaining, just that I realise how things are more serious and there's more responsibility that one needs to shoulder. I guess this is what being an adult is all about....

hmm, that reminds me, I've yet to hand in my transcript to MOE. Shit, better do it soon. Don't want to get my pay revised....haiz, responsibilities.....
 

The Killer

Judging by the number of posts put up, you can guess that I'm free-er today. Yesh! Today's the only free day I have since like about a month ago... So what other better way to spend it than to surf the net and catch up on a lot of entertainment news. I mean, I have been online every night in the past but it was more for research and work. At most, I'll only be checking out auctions and latest news in my boys. Apart from that, I don't have the eye power and energy to watch any videos and download stuff. So, today, it was revenge time, looking up on recommended songs by friends and acquaintances. And one of the songs that strike me the most and I really like is JJ Lin's "The Killa". I mean, when my friend let me listen to the song in school, I was amazed and had wanted to listen to it properly but didn't have the time to. So, today, I listened, I even watched the MV (uncensored) and watched that 20-min mini movie on YouTube. I have to say, it's really morbid but I love it. Like really love it. I mean, it's freaky and all but it was done in good taste. I remember reading about how some Taiwanese broadcasting companies banned his MV because of the disturbing scenes and at most the censored certain scenes off. I didn't know what the hype was about but after seeing the MV, I can understand the hype. But really, to me, it's done artistically and I find it rather refreshing as compared to all the MVs that are made nowadays, which tend to use cliche storylines. All in all, I feel that more of such refreshing MVs should be made. Maybe not as morbid as this MV but at least create new storylines in order to attract more people.

2019

Ok, so I went to the team-bonding activities today despite the heavy heart and feet. Well, on the positive note, I had fun. When I first saw the group, I was like going Uh-oh coz everyone seems to have a gloomy face and didn't seem to be friendly. But me being me, I started talking to the next person beside me who incidentally was the most-friendly-looking person in the group at that point of time. But as the activities went on, everyone started to open up and overall we had fun. I guess people just need to get warmed up before they can have fun.

Recognised a few people who were conducting the camp and it made me realise how small the world--or in this case, Singapore---can be. I mean, most of the people whom I managed to recognise were from NUS and even if I did not know them personally well, I've seen them on campus and in events often enough to recognise them.

Also speaking of familiar faces, there is this person in my GESL group whom I really think looks familiar. It's either that or the person looks very much similar to somebody I know... And if it's true that it's more of the person looking like somebody I know, then I think I know who the person reminds me of. And that somehow brings back fond but embarassing memories for me because it was a time where I wasn't sure. Wasn't sure of what? Well, it's only for me to know and maybe in future, if I more brave to say it, I'll tell you.....

Right now, i'm really tired...coz straight after the activities, I had to race down to AMK for tuition....My mum asked me if I can cope. Well, so far I can and considering that most of my tuition ends in October, I think it'll be just nice and I'll have more time to concentrate on my work.....

Ok da, wanna surf somemore since tomorrow I don't have school.....tata

gripes and worries

I found a very interesting seller online that can sell me concert goods....but it seems every time when we made dealings, there seems to be a problem and there's also miscommunication here and there. Hopefully she did receive my email the other time and had told her friend about it. Coz I remember she wrote to me to confirm with her about it. I kind of had a bad feeling yesterday and confirmed with her again. Then she replied that the pre-order had ended and I would have to wait a few days more to confirm my order. I have written to her to say that I've already emailed her the other time to confirm my order. Hopefully she realises her mistake and tell me that my order had been taken note of. Haiz, that's the problem with online purchasing I guess---there can be miscommunication here and there. Now, I just pray hard that I can get whatever I wanted earlier on...***crossing fingers and toes very very hard....

Hello there!

Here I am, in this new place. Decided to make a move here because I just wanted a change. Moreover, this place allows me to upload audio n photos more easily ( I think so far) than blogger. So, this is the 2nd home for me....hope it lasts....

I know I haven't been blogging lately. There have been many times when I do want to blog. It's just that by the time I actually have the time to do it, I'm too tired and my eyes are too heavy to do it...

Anyway, I'll talk more later...promise promise! Here's a song that I am so inspired with. Of course it's by Arashi. The english translation is also here...and you'll see why I love this song so much...

07 Carry on

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Carry On by Arashi (Credit to nyanchan for english translations)

no matter what night dawns, today is born
that's a new morning that no one knows
does the humming train carry hope
or does it head on holding nothing but anxiety?

tell me the reason I was unable to sleep
because if I could talk to someone it would surely get easier

we're probably lost while on the way to where we're going
even so we'll continue to look up at the sky
doubting myself, while still only
embracing weakness I walk on yet again

no matter what rain lets up, a rainbow is born
forming a bridge to a far, far away place
if the cuffs of your jeans ne, are incredibly soaked
you should stand still, don't hurry

tell me the dreams you held so dear
because I won't say something like 'do your best' lightly

where will we arrive, we're being carried by the flow
even so we'll continue to look up at our dreams
believe in yourself, only strength will
go on to pry open the door to tomorrow

are you going to give up already
if there are also dreams that won't come true?
let's feel the things that can't be seen
hope and wishes
to carry on, embrace them tightly, yeah yeah yeah

don't lose sight of your tomorrow
let's go on pursuing the endless dreams
the rain will let up, if morning comes
it will shine down again on our tomorrow

let's try believing once again
that there are no dreams won't come true
let's feel the paths that can't be seen
the path that's yours alone
to carry on, one step at at time is fine, yeah
to carry on, the future is waiting, yeah
to carry on