sorry, i know this is going to sound depressing..but it suddenly hit me of the unhappiness I feel being here. The whole environment is just so different and just well, evil and harsh. Comparing with my previous experience, I just feel suffocated. Now I understand why some give up after a while. It's not them who had their passion disappearing, it's the surroundings that killed their passion. There are things I want to do but can't because it goes against their principles.
All in all, the bottomline is if you give me respect, I'll give you respect. Once that agreement is broken, it can't be mended. But here, there is no respect at all, it makes me wonder and worry for the future...not my future, theirs! because I do know of a backup that is possible. I can still live on, but they?
somehow that last statement has become my mantra each day...and it is kind of depressing when every day, you think nothing but this, on how to improve this....
lucky Arashi is there to brighten up my day. It's the littlest things like their songs, their voice and seeing their smile makes me think that things are possible..if I can believe that here...
the naked truth about life is...nothing is easy... T_____T
remember about the vacation that i told you in MSN? hehehehe...maybe you should have that honey, not to make the problem dissapear ( i wish hahaha..) but to let go a bit of burden...
as for you dear, you need to deal with human being ( i understand that...) which apparently different in their own way... and being a human..we have the greatest gift... a brain and the ability to adapt to surroundings.... it just a matter of time honey, i am sure you will adapted to it
face it as a challenge and be a strong-will woman.. you are going to make through. and we will always here for you
^_________^
*hugssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
~icemizu
Posted by: kitorang | 02/29/2008 at 02:08 PM
yep..next wk, I'll bring my stick and pipes along...apparently can't bring my kasa coz they will laugh at it...so need to be more yankumi yo! now, if only i can bring a baseball bat...haha, yesh, I was really tempted to use a baseball bat to whack them...
well, i'm preparing myself...according to my mentor, if i can teach here, i can teach anywhere..hmmmm...
haha, yep yep, vacation after the 10 wks..haha, maybe al of us can coordinate and all of us haf vacation together...wakaka!
Posted by: sitiko | 02/29/2008 at 02:24 PM
***HUGS***
I somewhat am experiencing what your talking about but in a different way.
I just wanna say that this thing happening to you right now is like a big wall that you have to destroy or pass by. You are such a strong girl, not like me whose a complete crybaby... never give up ne~ show them what youve got!
... i hope that helps, *gives you more *HUGGGSSSS*
Posted by: 金言 | 02/29/2008 at 04:39 PM
*hugs*
dear, i wish i can hug u for real right now.
i got no wise things to say. cause im depressed and mad at the right time too. so i wish u can be happy ne~~
cheer up yo!
*im always in MSN yo!* i miss u there, dear!
Posted by: katz08 | 02/29/2008 at 04:49 PM
hhahahahah yeah should bring some pipes and show them how "yankumi" you can be. you go girl!!
i think your mentor was right... if this is the worst place...you can survive anywhere ^_______^V
ahhhh...good idea~~!!
vacation together....where? paradise island? kekekekekekekekekeke
Posted by: kitorang | 02/29/2008 at 05:21 PM
family problem? i really dunno what to neechan.. but YOU can do it!
i know you're strong and matured enough to surpass it ><
Posted by: akšsuki | 02/29/2008 at 10:14 PM