my heart bleeds...

3rd day of school..
And there was a fight between a girl in my class and another girl...
basically my girl, F, slapped another girl as a result of some personal quarrel

thg is, i am now feeling very sad and vexed about it.
i can handle ppl calling me names
i can handle it when ppl be rude at me
but i can't handle it when i see those under my charge do violence and cause hurt.

somehow i feel very sad and affected when i see those that i am supposed to take care, do something to hurt themselves and others...
i am not concerned with my name being sullied as a result of this, or others gossip and look at me in another way...
that's not my main concern...
my main concern is how this is gg to affect their lives and how young they are..
they are just 14 yrs old...and yet they are involved in all this...

to tell you the truth, i am scared for them...
makes me wonder, how can i help them in any way possible...

now, i have to find F's parents and talk to them abt her....

guess part of me, is feeling scared on the possible outcome of this....
what is in store for me in the future...
i wonder....
i really do....

and i am having the next class with them...
yet, i dunno if my emotions can be masked...

Comments

[Kiiroi Namida]

sighs, teenagers nowadays are really "violent" ne...my time was much more innocent, just stop talking to each other for days...

ganbatte ne! You can make it~

[MYShow]

*pat*
this is what i see during my school days. fighting each other.. now you have to prepare facing her parents.. cause some parents will in return scold back.

[Aivana]

T.T...maybe this'll cheer u up?...knowing that ur NOT teaching america's inner city schools....where there's atleast 5 knife/gun fights a day! @[email protected] friend has to teach in THAT!!....>_<

but..i REALLY hope u can make it! ^_^ *huggles*

[loopsnhoops]

ahhhh this is the period of teenage rebellion ne~
*hugs
ganbatte, sensei!!

[annie]

*hugs siti chan*

ahhh... i just couldn't imagine how dreadful it was for you.... it's hard ne.. being a sensei... T.T

[baystorm]

i guess you will have to get used to this and find the best way to handle it ne. cos it might happen quite often. don't be scared and have a good talk with them. maybe you can try asking around how other teachers handle such situations. gambatte! :)

[kikinini]

Siti chan Daijoubu?*hugs*
Ganbatte!

[sitiko]

precisely.....seems she has a history of violent tendencies....i guess i was a bit upset and frustrated because i jus started and the other teachers esp the higher-ups are looking at me asking why this has happened...like hmmmm...

[sitiko]

ya...think the big probem here is the parents...will see how...at least i know tt when meeting the parents, i will not be alone...coz the discipline mistress and the level head will be there...but then, i dunno...haiz...see how...

[sitiko]

yes! i am thankful for tt....i know there are some schs in spore where violence is the number one prob....so in a way, i am very lucky and thankful for tt

thanks dear...yep yep...will try my best ^ ^

[sitiko]

yes, teenage rebellion can be a sad thg right...esp when they are not controlled well....

[sitiko]

i guess so...it's very easy and impt to be the teacher they hate because they get scolded and disciplined....but to win them over and finding the real cause...tt in a way is a prob...

[sitiko]

yeah, i expect this to happen...but not soo soon...not like the 3rd day of work...\luckily this case, i will have some help from the discipine committee....but still i need to really get into the matter and find out why...coz i suspect, the matter is not so simple as it is...

[sitiko]

think i will be ok after some time...did tear a bit just now...but now better...
arigatou ne...i really appreciate it...

[wen]

*huuugs*