Curious yet Cautious

how how how

shit...
i am entertaining bad thoughts
now considering abt whether i shld go for 2nd day
my sis giving me ideas on how to miss my flight
den go email or phone the principal to seek permission
to come back on monday...
dies...
should i do tt
coz officially i haf not applied for leave...
tho i ask permission...
how how how?

last words...

it's the end of Hime's bdae...
I love the way he said to everyone to come down to support the cause and not cause of his bdae...
hime will always be hime ne...he is sooo Jun!

my aunt gave us this cake yest...
fruit cake!
yum yum! it's the bdae cake for Hime!!!

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today was war...
din get the desired tix...
but for me..
as long as i am there, i am happy...
wan to be there to feel the love and energy tt ppl haf been talking abt for arashi con

there will be other chances..
next yr...
a more special yr for all of us!

otsukaresame ne minna for the fight...
was feeling pissed off tt i had to go off early for errands...
went to buy these as celebration..
hehe, so glad i found purple wrapping chocs!
combi of two of my fav thgs!

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anw, happy bdae hime!
watching the docudorama...
you are indeed a good actor!
was looking at u the whole time!
your grins, smiles and suffering..hits me so!

I hate myself for loving you...

the current state of war...
many casualties....
still no sign of victory...haiz...

anw...while waiting..i did my picspam...haha....
for those pics with my name...sorry ne...coz it's my own collection...so me a bit protective since it took me a long time to find the old pics of hime-chan...

now...pic spam time...

We all love him so because of his cheeky,boyish,dorky wide smile ^___________^

and his royal highness kakkoi poses...

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and who can got get his deadly hypnotising delicious stares....

hime-chan...it's ur bdae today...pls bring me luck...pls pls pls.....

To my beloved...

It's a starter..haha...tm is pic spam day since i will be home FOR YOU!

But for now...

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Otanjoubi Omedetou Hime-chan...
Because of you,
I am here
I am who I am
A better person...
not counting the insanity part..haha!

Will always love and adore you...
no matter what others say...
You are the most MAN man a woman can have...no matter how they say you look like otherwise...

You know..there is a song tt simply explains some fo the feelings i have for u...
by my other fav band..
hehe, presenting "Tearing Up My Heart" by NSYNC
 

It's tearing up my heart when I'm with you,

 But when we are apart I feel it too

And no matter what I do I feel the pain

With or without you...

Meme time!!!

Hehe, answering Annie's impromptu meme ^ ^
we're sppsd to show our desk/ workspace right?
hehe, lemme show u my shrine at my work place ^ ^

hehe, will show u part of my desk...which is my shrine...weeeee!!! the rest of the desk area...yabai!!
after all, everyone needs a good distraction and rest once in a while...hehe!

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the other corner of my space...

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yes, as u can see...worksheets everywhere....and to the right of this..i have more piles of worksheet...haha....too embarassing to show >_<

so how does minna's desk look like?

HOW??!!!

Jun's birthday is this Saturday and I have yet to think of something to do for his birthday!
Oh btw, Hime-chan....i know it is ur bdae soon...BUT BUT BUT
I HATE YOU!!
HOW CAN YOU BE SOOOOOO CUTE????!!!!!!
NOW I AM LIKE GOING ON A WITCH HUNT TRYING TO FIND THOSE PICS...
ESP TT ONE WHERE HE BIT HIS LIPS....
KYAAAAA!!! HIME!!!

things you do when you have nothing to do in the train...

was busyexperimenting tt i missed my stop and had to take another train back >_<

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and since we are going there....imagine...each letter has their color ^__________________^

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natsu matsuri, ikemen, toma and sho?

ok...will talk more if needed..but now posting the necc....coz need to study..haha!
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yesterday's matsuri...lots of ikemen...there are the bishies..the MAN ones..and simply the cute ones...
lots of kawaii chibis also...

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firstly...the object of our stalking..haha...
TOMA look-alike!

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Here he looks a bit like Sho...but look at this..totally look like toma right?!.

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omg! very cute!!! forgive the quality of the pic....it was kind of dark...had to photoshop a bit..hehe....now i know how a pappa feels...

Actually, one of his frens remind us of Yara...but din get photo of him...

Also got one who queued up beside us...look like TOKIO's drummer...but cannot get photo of him coz he was too close...i totally love his phone by the way!

Den, there's a boy..whom our two girls love!..haha...i find the brother cute...poor brother..he seem so unwilling to be there...as if forced...but he's so cute...haha!

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den...someone wore his jersey...and guess what? he's SHO!...wakaka! he's part of the Albirex Niigata football team...keke...but somehow cannot play the soccer tricks well on stage..hehe..maybe coz nervous...but still...he's not tt bad looking either..keke!

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We ate loads of food and played games...think we spent a lot on food but no matter! tt's what Matsuri is all about..the fun and happiness...

the performances....this one totally reminded us of ohmiya...esp the songs...and the costume...haha, was half-expecting ohmiya themselves to appear!

taiko drum....the young kid is GOOD!

Okok...next yr, yukata-wearing!! denn we can join these ppl!

our own miss universe...hehe

he looks so poised...sure to be able to win the miss universe if he can..haha!

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more to come...i think..haha!

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AWWWW.....sho got teased by the rest abt his admirer...worst thg..the papa was there..haha! it was a true faceoff...all coz one of the ppl brought it up..saying how is it tt she put it on sho and not the papa..wakaka! cuteness to see Sho very embarrassed and blushing a lil and trying to defend himself..haha!

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btw...this guy...cute!!! and he won a medal....

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anw..NTV....rich ah! have s special dinner and prizes prepared for the athletes who have returned home...and i saw sushi...and other stuff...amazing!

when someone dies, u shld feel sad....but i dun feel it...

Just got news that my grandfather had just passed away...
my feeling...
i feel nothing about it..
not sad, not angry...i just feel nothing...
the main reason...
i have long considered my grandparents not part of my life...
it was because of some things that had happened in the past...
and now...
he has passed away...
and we got the news not from my grandma or my aunts themselves...
but from a distant aunt...
what does it tell u..
if u are being infirmed in this manner?
it just shows one thing...we are really not considered to be in their family...
which is very fine by me..
considering that they dun regards us especially the girls in my family as part of the blood...
my distant aunt was urging us to at least go there tonight and pay a visit...
my feeling...i am not gg to go...since i have work tomorrow...
but the least i can do...
well, i'll stay home tonight and not go for my test and take the test another day
yes, i mayb evil...but not heartless...
after all, i think i should be home to support my mom and protect her from being humiliated from those ppl who may be out to get her like what they tried to do when my dad passed away...