when someone dies, u shld feel sad....but i dun feel it...

Just got news that my grandfather had just passed away...
my feeling...
i feel nothing about it..
not sad, not angry...i just feel nothing...
the main reason...
i have long considered my grandparents not part of my life...
it was because of some things that had happened in the past...
and now...
he has passed away...
and we got the news not from my grandma or my aunts themselves...
but from a distant aunt...
what does it tell u..
if u are being infirmed in this manner?
it just shows one thing...we are really not considered to be in their family...
which is very fine by me..
considering that they dun regards us especially the girls in my family as part of the blood...
my distant aunt was urging us to at least go there tonight and pay a visit...
my feeling...i am not gg to go...since i have work tomorrow...
but the least i can do...
well, i'll stay home tonight and not go for my test and take the test another day
yes, i mayb evil...but not heartless...
after all, i think i should be home to support my mom and protect her from being humiliated from those ppl who may be out to get her like what they tried to do when my dad passed away...

Comments

[annie]

it's hard but when you're not that close to the person, even if he/she is your relative.. if you have almost non existent relationship... it's hard to feel something..

when my grandma died, i didn't cry but one of my cousins was hurling in tears maybe because he used to lived with her...

but when an aunt of mine dies.. i couldn't stop crying.. though she didn't really lived with us, she had been there to lecture me with care and love soooo i deeply felt the loss.

*hugs siti*

[sitiko]

i know wat u mean dear...
it's jus more painful if u ACTUALLY haf a r/s with tt person...
my mom decided to go back to malaysia to visit...so am now holding the fort here at home while she is gone...

[annie]

*hugs*

that's all i can give..~